I used to write a lot here, but since I started having therapy, i’ve mostly told my therapist instead of the world. I’m still actively in therapy, and every day I am grateful for the fact that I found someone as wonderful as I did. However! There are some things that I feel she just won’t ever understand with concerns to SL purely because of the fact she has never played it. There’s big words, “”Cognitive Dissonance” that play into the whole area of Secondlife. It’s real, you’re experiencing the things, but it’s not real, because you can’t touch, feel, smell the things. The real things are emotions, and as someone who deals with BPD – an emotional dis-regulation mental health issue, this is something that I struggle with on multiple levels, almost every day. I swing violently between wanting to have people to connect with, and burning it all to the ground and playing the ‘game’ as though it were almost single player.
The phrase “Everyone’s gonna hurt you, you just have to find the ones worth hurting for” rings in my brain like an earworm on repeat, because there’s less than a handful of people that I feel would treat me the way I intend to treat others – so does that make everyone here big nasty meanies? Or am I just so jaded I need to give it up?
At this point, say what you want and do it, but if you or your actions don’t bring me peace… don’t be weird when I peace out.
Make it a beautiful day, Spoonies. You’re worth it.
I think i’ve been burned out for a hot minute, so it’s about time I take a break. RL is really picking up again for the summer months, and i’d love to travel some again. If you don’t see much of me for the next few weeks, never fear, I shall return! I’m going to be pausing my regular sponsors, and will probably post occasionally with those I am lucky enough to be VIP for, and hopefully i’ll learn some new things along the way too.
Make it a beautiful day, Spoonies. You’re worth it.
I feel like I’m channeling one of my favourite humans, Pixie, In this ensemble! Anything colourful and animal print, I always ask myself WWPD?
Make it a beautiful day, Spoonies. You’re worth it.
All of the things :
Head : LeLUTKA Billie head Body : eBODY – REBORN Shape : Little Star : Lovejoy /Lelutka Billie [EvoX] Skin : .MILA. Sasha Skin [LELUTKA EVOX] Eyes : LOTUS. Raspberry Eyes @ Equal10 Earrings : ^^Swallow^^ Earrings Dropped D02 for ^^Swallow^^ Dropped lel Evo X Ears Head Tattoo : Moon Dust – Celestial Marks [LelEvox] @ Kawaii Project(Note, this event closes today, please allow time for transfer to mainstore <3) Hair : WINGS-HAIR-EF0401 Collar : Pare.Sega Belt Corset and Choker Outfit : .miss chelsea. Zaya Set @ Equal10 Bag : [DDL] Forbidden
Last week I started taking a Vitamin B Complex. This week, I’m full of beans. Or b’s? I don’t know, but I’m ENERGETIC (ok not like, marathon energetic), I hurt less and I walked more than normal. I know this all seems a little trite for regular folk who do all the things all the time, but I am NOT one of them. I have a few health conditions that make it difficult for me, and I’m also a big ol’ BPD girly, so when I can actually do the things I want to do to keep all of that at bay, I couldn’t be happier. Ultimately kids, take your vitamins. ❤
Let’s look at some things, yeah?
Mila’s Sasha skin is available in 8 Mila tones. They all have a neck fader included so you can mix and match with your favourite body skins. Alternatively, if your favourite body skin is Velour you’re in luck, as there’s now 4 tones available in the Velour range, too!
As with Mila’s own tones, the velour tones come with two eyebrow options, I’m using 02. ❤
Lotus’s Rasberry Eyes are truly beautiful. I always have such trouble deciding which eyes to wear, but tend to veer on the more realistic side unless i’m doing a fantasy look.
Make it a beautiful day, Spoonies. You’re worth it.
All of the things :
Head : LeLUTKA Billie head Body : eBODY – REBORN Shape : Little Star : Lovejoy /Lelutka Billie [EvoX] Skin : .MILA. Sasha Skin [LELUTKA EVOX] Eyes : LOTUS. Raspberry Eyes @ Equal10 Earrings : ^^Swallow^^ Earrings Dropped D02 for ^^Swallow^^ Dropped lel Evo X Ears Hair : Stealthic – Venture @ The Fifty Tattoo : Lilithe’// Ulda Tattoos @ The Warehouse Sale (Note : To achieve this look I wore & tinted the Faint [FULL] Version, and layered on the Worn [V2] option)
Kaleidoscope. 