I used to write a lot here, but since I started having therapy, i’ve mostly told my therapist instead of the world. I’m still actively in therapy, and every day I am grateful for the fact that I found someone as wonderful as I did.
However! There are some things that I feel she just won’t ever understand with concerns to SL purely because of the fact she has never played it.
There’s big words, “”Cognitive Dissonance” that play into the whole area of Secondlife. It’s real, you’re experiencing the things, but it’s not real, because you can’t touch, feel, smell the things. The real things are emotions, and as someone who deals with BPD – an emotional dis-regulation mental health issue, this is something that I struggle with on multiple levels, almost every day. I swing violently between wanting to have people to connect with, and burning it all to the ground and playing the ‘game’ as though it were almost single player.

The phrase “Everyone’s gonna hurt you, you just have to find the ones worth hurting for” rings in my brain like an earworm on repeat, because there’s less than a handful of people that I feel would treat me the way I intend to treat others – so does that make everyone here big nasty meanies? Or am I just so jaded I need to give it up?

At this point, say what you want and do it, but if you or your actions don’t bring me peace… don’t be weird when I peace out.

Make it a beautiful day, Spoonies. You’re worth it.

All of the things :

Head : LeLUTKA Avalon Head
Body : eBODY – REBORN & Waifu Boobs
Hairbase : darkmoon . Sable Hairbase @ Anthem
Hair : Stealthic – Trend @ Equal10
Earrings : rotten {heavy hearted} For Swallow Dropped Ears
Mouth Flower : .::Crystal::. Daisy Love face
Outfit : Mug – Kori Outfit @ Kustom9
Bodychain : Cynful What a Beach Bodychain
Sandy Legs : Izzie’s – Sandy Feet & Legs