I’ve been in “one of those moods” since I woke up.
You know, the type of mood where getting out of bed is a struggle, where answering your phone and having a perfectly normal conversation with your friend about their day just absolutely pisses you off, and where everything that happens just makes you wanna stab people more. Not anyone specific, just everyone. Stabby. Stab.
I’ve been trying to remind myself that it’s an off day – but then I remember that an off day isn’t an entire day of off. It’s just some select moments that are off. The rest of that day is filled with regular things – putting the shopping away from the delivery and finding out you treated yourself to some fudge. Or looking behind you at your beautiful new bed that you purchased, all by yourself, and also assembled, all by yourself and remembering how far you’ve come in such a short space of time.
Sometimes after I’ve actually cleaned my kitchen (properly, not just the general wipe and run), I walk in and it feels like little fairies have been at work. Something so mundane and usual suddenly feels sparkly and magical.
Every day there are moments that suck, and moments that don’t. The moments that suck are generally fewer – but for some reason we focus on those. Instead, I’m going to try not to focus on that and be grateful for everything I have that doesn’t suck – and there’s a lot.
Make it a beautiful day, Spoonies. You deserve it. xoxo.