Sometimes the stars align, and today was one of those days. I’m in love with my own picture and I don’t give a shit if that’s egotistical, bite me!
Self care for me often felt a bit weird, because I didn’t realize that I shouldn’t be making myself feel good for someone else, I should be making myself feel good for me. Now that I’ve actually embraced it, I’m self caring all over the show. I’m spending 5 minutes extra in the shower so that my conditioner can really sink into my hair. I’m moisturizing after the shower and rubbing lotion on my feet before I go to bed. I’m tidying up – not because my place is a mess (anymore!), but because the satisfaction I get when I see a counter I’ve cleaned stay clean gives me a whole new type of pride. Such silly little things – every day things, but with the right mindset the whole world changes.
Mental health has always taken a prominent part of the text part of my blog, but I never really understood how important taking accountability for myself was. I’ve done some shitty things – and probably will do some shitty things in the future, because I am human… but I no longer want to lash out all the time and I get that when I do it’s usually just a reaction to something I’m not yet dealing with. So I’ll take whatever loss that comes from my lashing out because that’s my penance, but I will strive not to make those same mistakes again. I’m thoroughly enjoying the person I am now as imperfect and troubled as she is and I can’t wait to meet the person I know I can be.
Do something today that’ll make you breathe a little easier. Take a moment for yourself. You’re worth it, Spoonies. xoxo
