The light at the end of the tunnel is a train!
Not really. But it’d be typical if it were!
I had an argument with a long standing friend yesterday. Apparently, I’m a horrible person because I made a series of mistakes over the past couple of weeks – and apparently even before then I was showing signs of being a butthole. I don’t believe this to be true, and the very fact that I have come out of the series of mistakes in a much better place should -in my opinion- have been enough to show that I am still trying to sort my shit out. I could have curled up into a ball and decided to hide, but I’m facing this head on, admitting I fucked up and trying to make changes to ensure this really doesn’t happen again. Will it happen again? Maybe. Should my friends stand back and support me while I make these mistakes, time and time again? Probably not, honestly, so.. I said goodbye.
I’m pretty biased when it comes to me. I actually kinda like who I am, and I entirely believe if I have an issue, it’s probably justified – unless it’s not when I can admit that, too! I don’t think I’ve been an asshole lately, and believe me when I say that I’m open to constructive criticism, but don’t give me that criticism and still behave badly after I’ve actually made an attempt to rectify what offends YOU.
I do think I’ve been slightly more selfish with my time because I need to heal myself, and if healing myself means I’m an asshole… i’ll take it.
Happy Hump-Day, Spoonies xoxo.