So I think I did it. I think I made a colourful av! Huzzah Pickle, you little multi-coloured gem!
This last two days have basically been the culmination of my absolute stupidity. You know when you’re walking into a blazing building to rescue… no one, but set the rest of the world on fire? Yep. That’s me. Hi. I’m Pickle.
I guess it would be considered a borderline moment, but I’m pretty sure that some people without borderline often feel like they just need to make everything crash around them, and if i’m honest this was a long time coming. I’m hoping the worst is over now, and I can concentrate on picking myself up again, not playing the victim TOO much, because it really was my fault, and I need to take accountability.
In the mean time, I’m going to attempt to be more present. In every recovery there will be times when you relapse. That’s all this was. A relapse. I got this, time to start again. xoxo